Sunday, December 28, 2008

what an amazing end to this year
it is just indescribable
a new year with new hope and new start is gonna happen
what a beautiful year God has planned for us
God, let us take our generation and open up more spaces till we have to move to CCK =D

Sunday, December 07, 2008

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

-By Your Side Tenth Avenue North-

Why am I trying so hard to look around??
God why am I trying so hard??
Why am I not looking to You and looking for other things that will never be able to satisfy me??
You will always be there around me keeping me safe yet I treated You never existed
Give me a reason to continue on.
Give me a reason to stay.
Give me a reason keep on fighting.
Give me a reason not to abandon everything.
Give me a reason not to lose it all.
Give me a reason to never give up
Give me a reason to be strong.
Lord give me a reason, an assurance that everything its alright.
Its so easy to have the perfect answer, but what I really want is an answer from You.
I know that You are just beside me.
Tell me what am I suppose to do??
Tell me where can I get my purpose??
What are the plans in my life??
I know the answers to all the questions, but all I want is to hear Your voice.
Just one word and I will give You my whole universe.
Just one word.
Just one word.


Tuesday, November 18, 2008


Faith for my one and only.
When I cant feel You I learn to reach out still the same, in the darkest and hardest times of my life I still learn to reach out to You all the same.
When I dont hear a word, I know that You are still there listening to all that I have to say.
Though I dont sense You, I know that You are always around me. Knowing that You are always around keeps me in peace.

When the world has fallen out from under me, I'll be found in You, still standing
When the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees
When time and space are through
I'll be found in You

I will be found in You cause You make all things new.



-Faithful Brooke Fraser-

There's distance in the air
and I cannot make it leave
I wave my arms 'round about me
and blow with all my might
I cannot sense You close,
though I know You're always here
But the comfort of You near is what I long for

When I can't feel You,
I have learned to reach out just the same
When I can't hear You,
I know You still hear every word I pray
And I want You
more than I want to live another day
And as I wait for You
maybe I'm made more faithful

All the folly of the past,
though I know it is undone
I still feel the guilty one,
still trying to make it right
So I whisper soft Your name,
let it roll around my tongue,
knowing You're the only one who knows me
You know me

When I can't feel You,
I have learned to reach out just the same
When I can't hear You,
I know You still hear every word I pray
And I want You
more than I want to live another day
And as I wait for You
maybe I'm made more

Show me how I should live this
Show me where I should walk
I count this world as loss to me
You are all I want
You are all I want

When I can't feel You,
I have learned to reach out just the same
When I can't hear You,
I know you still hear every word I pray
And I want You
more than I want to live another day

And as I wait for You
maybe I'm made more
As I wait for You
maybe I'm made more
As I wait for You
maybe I am made more
Faithful

Monday, October 13, 2008

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'

DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.

SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'That's none of your business.. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.

SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'

SON: 'Oh,' the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'

The father was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.

The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think:

Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.

'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.

'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.'

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.

The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.

'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.

'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'

The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he
begged for his forgiveness.

God wants to spend time with us even when everything around us is so hectic and busy. Putting time aside isnt much as He has already paid by sending His Son down to die on the cross. What else can I ask for?? God You're sooooo amazing that even amazing seems to belittle You.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

All the authority all the preaching must come from the the pulpit, no its not true, it comes from the life of the people. It is nonsense to talk about sacrifice when you see Jesus dying for you on the cross. If Jesus Christ died for me, then no sacrifice will be too big for me to make for Him.

This is taken from iheart dvd.

Wow is the only word that can describe this.

When can I ever say that no sacrifice is too big for me??

Sunday, September 14, 2008

To laugh is to risk appearing like a fool
To weep is to risk appearing like sentimental
To reach out to another is to risk involvement
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self
To place your ideas and dreams before a crowd is to risk their loss
To love is to risk not being loved in return
To hope is to risk despair
To try is to risk to failure
But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing
The person who risk nothing, does nothing, has nothing, is nothing
He may avoid suffering and sorrow
But he cannot learm, feel, change, grow or live
Chained by his servitude he is a slave who has forfeited all freedom
Only a person who risk is free
The pessimist complains about the wind
The optimist expects it to change
And the realist adjusts the sails.

William Arthur Ward, " To Risk "

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

The statement was read to a packed congregation at the pentacostal church his father, Danny Guglielmucci founded, Edge Church International at Reynella.

Mr Gugliemucci’s says the reason behind his fictitious cancer story was to hide his 16 year obsession with pornography.

“It is with much pain and sadness that I make this statement today,” he said in the statement.

“For over 16 years I have struggled with an addition to adult pornography as a result of this secret life of sin my body would often breakdown.

“I’d report the cause of my symptoms simply as illnesses and I’ve thrown my life into a ministry for many years trying to compensate for my sin.

“I believe that I do love Jesus and I know that he loves me and it is this love along with the prayers of people around the world that bring me to this place of confession.

“Two years ago, I reported that I was suffering from cancer, the truth is that although I was ill I did not have cancer but was again using the misdiagnosis to hid the lie that I was living.

“I know in my heart that it is the truth alone that will set me free and this is the reason for my confession.

“I’ve dishonoured God, my wife, my family and the church and I take full responsibility for my actions and would like to make it very clear that no-one else was in any way aware of my double life.

“I’m fully committed to a process of discipline, recovery and restitution and will see this process through to what ever extent is necessary.

“I am deeply sorry and pray that you will find it in your hearts to forgive me.

“Currently I am undergoing professional medical assessment and evaluation to help identify and begin to treat the real and much deeper issues.

“Please continue to pray for my wife and I and my family as we have a long, hard road ahead of us but a road that I’m thankful to God that I’m finally walking.”



Mike Guglielmucci's statement really shows that no one is perfect on this earth. Working hard in the ministry trying to work off your sin, as we feel unworthy to be in the presence of the Lord. Guilty feelings, conscience pricking, always going to services and conferences having a heavy heart of "I have failed You once again, I do not feel worthy to be in the presence of You".

The problem is that we are never worthy for God, the only one that is worthy is Him alone. God will never fail to accept our shortcomings.

The courage of admitting it is so unbelievable. Imagine someone that looks so perfect on the outside yet willing to lose all dignity all position and all power, just all for the sake of getting right with Jesus. It sure took him 16 years before having the right mentality, but im sure that after this he will stand up even taller and stronger than ever before knowing that Jesus is all he needs.



When the news started breaking last week, my reaction was total disbelief at first. How could such a situation have slipped under the radar? How could so many of the “best and brightest” lights of the ACC movement have gotten caught up in something so awful and so outrageous?

Is Church Culture To Blame? … and the answer to that, after much reflection, is a YES. But its much bigger than being a Planetshakers issue. The ACC itself exhibits some characteristics which are unhealthy, some of which you have already documented, such as:

– a “cult of personality” revolving around leaders of big churches
– a “don’t question the leadership or our direction” attitude
– treating all criticism as negativity, and thereby dismissing it
– focus gradually moving from content to presentation style
– a complete obsession with numbers (i.e. how many people, how many churches)

The “don’t talk” rule which is in operation, which prevents healthy questioning and criticism from coming to the fore, would have prevented anyone with a question or critcism of the Mike G scenario from coming forward. Nobody would have listened, and would have dismissed the questioner as being negative, pulling down God’s annointed leadership, etc etc.

Healthy critical analysis is essential to preventing us from slipping into error, or falling into a trap. Without it, we are accountable to nobody and are therefore prone to error

WHAT TO DO?

Our National Executive need to take a step back from the particulars of this situation and have a look at our culture. In particular, they need to consider whether the pendulum of “leadership” has swung too far and needs some correction. Such change can only come from the top. So I pray that they will have both wisdom and courage enough to confront ACC culture and take corrective action where it is needed.

If we think the problem (Mike G) is the problem, we’re wrong … its a symptom and a warning shot across our bows.

There is one answer, and one answer only: Jesus!

Any time our focus is drawn away from him and on to “the church” or “numbers” or “leadership” or “worship” or “building the kingdom” or whatever, then we’re missing the point. Our focus is Jesus, and everything else stems from that personal relationship we have with him.


This was taken from an email addressing the needs of the churches today. Isn't it amazing that a lot of things have changed and its happening to many churches not only in Australia but in almost every part of the world. Everything will be fine as long as we have got as our personal Lord and Saviour. Worship may be bad, sound and video may always screw up, but the one thing that will never change is that God will definitely be there when we cry out to Him or invite his presence into us.

There is no wrong of being perfect in anyway but making it like some kinda show results in the feeling that hey I can get the same thing in a club where everyone is having fun. What differs us from the outside world is that having someone to care for outside services, during the weekdays where by a msg or a call asking hows your day and building a real relationship which will bond for life.


When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worhip
And it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus

King of endless worth
No one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor
All I have is Yours
Every single breath

I'll bring You more than a song
I'll bring You more than a song
More than a song
I'll bring You more than a song
I'll bring You more than a song
You're looking into my heart
Looking into my heart
You're looking into my heart
Into my heart
I'll bring You more than a song
I'll bring You more than a song
I'll bring You more than a song
I'll bring You more than a song


I'll bring You more than a song

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

He became sin
Who knew no sin
That we might become His Righteousness
He humbled himself and carried the cross

Love so amazing
Love so amazing

Jesus Messiah
Name above all names
Blessed Redeemer
Emmanuel
The rescue for sinners
The ransom from Heaven
Jesus Messiah
Lord of all

His body the bread
His blood the wine
Broken and poured out all for love
The whole earth trembled
And the veil was torn

Love so amazing
Love so amazing, yeah

Chorus:
Jesus Messiah
Name above all names
Blessed Redeemer
Emmanuel
The rescue for sinners
The ransom from Heaven
Jesus Messiah
Lord of all

All I hope is in You
All I hope is in You
All the glory to You, God
The light of the world

Jesus Messiah
Name above all names
Blessed Redeemer
Emmanuel
The rescue for sinners
The ransom from Heaven
Jesus Messiah
Lord of all

Grace of God no words can be put to describe only by giving us Jesus

Monday, July 14, 2008

SYDNEY WAS FUN


The girls hanging off the cliff.


Our breakfast yummy Pancakes on the Rocks


Team A fall in.


The best self pic ever. Background just came in unintentionally =P


Joces and me with the rest of the group walking far infront.


Someone's missing... She went on a date =D


A once in a lifetime shot elated =)


Emoing but what a nice shot.


The Sydney Swans RULES BOO MAGPIES!!!


A pic at the conference. Simply magnificent.

Most of the pics were taken on the first 2 days. Kinda gave up after a while cause there were so many cameras goin around.

The conference was just wonderful. If I were to just type out all that happened it would have taken forever. So I will just do the 3 things that really impacted me.

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The weight of the stage
The opportunity of the moment
The potential of the room
-Joel Houston-

This 3 sentences just changed my whole life around. His heart-felt sermon was just magnificent. My favourite "sermon". This made me realise that the dreams that God has put in me are what is said in this 3 sentences.

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The 3 people that changed my life.

I never had a sense of belonging to the church cause I never had a friend that I could talk too. Was in a few different churches after I left children's ministry. Came back at the age of 15 to VFC and was cause my mother forced me to go. I sat with my mother at the back row for about 3-4 months. It was Ferri that said " Come to the front, the youths sitting there its really fun." The genuine and warm approach compelled me to say yes and I was in the youth ministry.

The Jurong East cell group was fun, but I never had friends ( real ones that I can talk to when I had trouble) There was a gap between the older youths and the younger ones. It felt like they were just there cause they were kinda "leaders". The rest of the guys around my age was just too close to ever made me feel included. Around that point Matthew Wee came from Region C and we became really good friends cause of the things that we do together are so similar like playing online games and soccer. Not long after there was Declan and the rest of the guys from CCK area that made a sense of belonging in the church. If not for them I would have gone to another church.

Finally. I never had a teacher/mentor that can be a pointer for me. A sentence made from someone I respected made my world crashing down. I was at the pits at that point. It was Elvin that came to me in my point of need. He changed my life showing me that he is a leader that is not perfect, yet doing his best to not moralise(moralise is someone that displays a perfect person and all he/she does is tell you that cannot do this and that) and also being a pointer to God. He became my mentor (unofficially). He was more of a big bro then anything else. Someone taking care of me, looking out for me.

I wanna be like Ferri Matt and Elvin. The 3 that exhibited characteristics that can impact lives of many people. I admit that I am still far away from what I really wanna be (Im still learning and doing my best). So if I make any mistakes smack me in the head and tell.

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On Wednesday 10/07/2008 Dot and me was booking sits for the rest and realise that we did not book enough so I went 1 sit above with Douglas. There was this guy sitting there and something spoke to me to tell me to sit beside. Im like WHY. The reply was " He is gonna give his life to Jesus and I need you to do something for him. (here comes the threat =D) If you dun do it he will return to back to his normal life. If you do it he will become a great man of God." Im like WHAT you kidding me always asking me to do stupid things. But He never fails no matter how silly it may sound to man, there is a purpose in everything He says. During worship, I can assure you that I have never seen such a person that was folding hands and not showing and interest. During sermons smsing away. But when the point came to accept Jesus he raised his hand to the shoulder. I was amazed. Then came the part where they were handing out cds and cards for consolidation. Then it was the nudge that I had to give which is to help the guy to response. I never did much work at all but the thing that I did radically changed another man's life.

The quote of the whole conference was " Do you wanna let them see a glimpse of Heaven or just preach them Heaven?" by Mike Pivalachi

A glimpse of heaven to me is in the genuine worship as it allows them to see Heaven. To me it is that. Im sure that the guy beside me was touch not by the preaching but by the worship that there was something special/different in it. To make my point. So my suggestion is: STOP ASKING VISITORS TO GO TO CONSOLIDATION ROOM DURING PRAISE AND WORSHIP!
It may be kinda weird and might destroy the flow especially just when the visitors are just about to enter that special moment with God through worship


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All I can say is that a whole new season has just started. Also that there are things that needs to be sacrificed so as to ensure that the gap between God and me can be closer or even removed.

What a great trip I had with an amazing bunch of people. Its so different from youth camps. But the God that I serve is the same no matter where I am at.
CHEERS

Saturday, June 28, 2008


Bukeroo somewhere secluded where people will get lost.


Pam and me.


The pork ribs that pam and me shared (which i ate most of it hohoho)

The amazing onion rings that tasted really good.

Beautifully baked lasagna


Deisha and me =P


Posing for the pic.


How can we forget the bday boy hoho.


2 more days to sydney and many things not done yet booooo.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Desmond slacking on the job while the rest was working hard.



Weisiang decided to slack as well while Jason works hard.


First attempt on Jocelyn trying to buy a drink and she got scammed of 50 cents


Her 2nd attempt and she was overjoyed by it haha.




The one and only PINK YOUGURT

And Desmond finished all up before we could get to it =D


Desmond was talking about obsessive compulsive disorder and i realised that i do have alot of them =D
I like to walk evenly (need more explanation?? find me haha)
I must eat the vegetables before eating the meat
I think that i have a lot that i dun realise myself too =D

Sunday, June 15, 2008

The Bride and Groom =D
Elvin Foong and Oon doing God knows what

Jidi and Jie Jie Lai Peng

Deisha and me
The Receptionists

After a trillion years of not blogging I finally blogged
So happy that we will be in Sydney in 14 days weeeeeee