Can't you just stop running and look around? Look how beautiful everything looks around? Everything will fall in His time =) It is the only comfort I got but its the best comfort I can ever get. To fall into His arms and trust in Him.

I always thought that I have grew up from that immature person that I was before army. Never needed anyone, thinking that I can do everything alone. But the truth is that I never really did grew up at all. If I find in myself desires nothing in this world can satisfy, I can only conclude that I was not made for here. If the flesh that I fight is at best only light and momentary, then of course I'll feel nude when to where I'm destined I'm compared.

Everyone has dreams and visions of what we are destined to be. But how many really did reached their destiny? I know that I am so far from what I am and need to be. Where am I exactly? Am I on a roundabout or a path that leads me no where? How far is it from where I am?

When the world came crashing down on me
You said You will not leave me
but why do I not feel that You are not here

When darkness seems to cave around
You said You will be with me
but why do I not feel Your gentle touch

You say that You're my God
You say that You're my Lord
A grace that knows no bound
A love that reaches out

I will praise You
When everything crashes all around
I will love You
When darkness is all that I see

I will live for
The one who died upon the cross
I will give my all
To the one who gave His all to me

Talking about sacrifice this and that and all the time in the World for church. But seriously when thinking about the ultimate sacrifice of dying on the cross it just made everything seemed so mediocre. Grow up Joash and stop complaining. It has been a great adventure and its time to start a new one. I will choose the path that You have chosen, which would be the best path ever for me.


Ecclesiastes 3 :11
"He has made everything beautiful in its time"