today i learnt something new about myself that i did not know and tot that such a thing would never happen to me. but haiz maybe this is just my life tat God is trying to show me something. maybe i should be thinking about wat i am about to say before it blurts out of my mouth.
today was quite boring hahaz studied all the way. wondered y dorothy did not turn up yesterday and today so gave her a call.
i was really thinking about many things today. like if i wanted to get married and all types of things. because i was thinking tat even if i get married, would i be as happy as i would be trying to save other people to God. i was thinking like just give up on A levels and fly to another country after NS and stay there for my whole life. any developing country would be fine.
i want to run hundreds of yards in hell pulling as much people as i can to while doing it. hahaz. maybe im really thinking too much. but there will be a time in my life that i would want to do it.
i really want to go east timor this year. which would mean that i have to save alot of money from now onwards. so no more fast food and snacks for me le. considering that i do not get much money a week. must really save alot money as i can.
no money than have to go bank loan le. but interest very high.
today's sermon was about change. and i was telling God if i should change a new environment like goin to another region or church. but goin to another region seems impossible as my parents are not gonna move house anytime soon. so im really not sure about anyting to do. feel like leaving and starting anew. not sure y too. mayb its just that i've seen alot that has happened in the last few months. and especially the last few months. hhmmmm....
nah lets skip this part. i will go when God tells me that is time to go.
hmmm... next part is sleeping time so.
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