I hide me far away from trouble
The world outside me grows darker by the day
So I promise to stay here close beside You
Surely God would want His children safe
Then in reading, how my eyes were opened
I find that He is leading us out into the world
Into the middle of fallen saints and sinners
Where a little grace is needed most
Come take the Light to darker parts
Share His truth with hardened hearts
We are not like the world, but we can love it
Come bring the hope to hopeless men
Until the lost are found in Him
He came to save the world so let us be. . .
In it, not of it
Wait a minute
If we say we love them, why are we not in it
Why we run and hide
Entertain a stranger
Maybe entertain an angel
The danger is if our worlds don't colide
We've cursed the darkness far too long
We need to hold the candle high
We have to go and right the wrongs
We need to touch the world with love.

In Not Of - Avalon


My ipod is crazy!! It switches on by itself while on the desk. Time and time again, it will display this song on it. Guess its trying to tell me something.



In not of.

"When a deep injury is done us, we will never recover until we forgive. Forgiveness does not change the past, But it does enlarge the future." Mary Karen Read


Some things may never be the same, but it may turn out for the better.

"Better Off Alone"

I was naive not to let you go when the time was right
I was a fool living in a dream that I thought could last
But I know that you will try to prove me wrong
But it's what I've got to do
I think you're mistaken, I'm sorry to say
I'm really just a loser who's getting in your way
I think you've forgotten, all of your plans
See you never meant to be here
And I think you should know
You're better off alone

And it's clear to me that everything has changed
Cuz nothing that we do feels the same any more
And I'll admit, I'll take the blame
Maybe we just moved too fast
And how could expect something like this to last
And I know that you will try and prove me wrong
But it's what I gotta do
I think you're mistaken, I'm sorry to say
I'm really just a loser who's getting in your way
I think you've forgotten all of your plans
See you never meant to be here and I think you should know
You're better off alone

You and I, we were standing watching us fall apart
So let me go and move along
I think you're mistaken, I'm sorry to say
I'm really just a loser who's getting in your way
I think you've forgotten all of your plans
See I never meant to be here and I think you should know
You're better off alone

Alone alone alone alone alone
Alone alone alone alone alone
Alone alone alone alone alone
Oh, you're better off alone

I think you're mistaken, I'm sorry to say
I'm really just a loser, you're better off alone

Better off alone

You hold the universe in Your hands. You make the world revolt around the sun. You made the earth so beautiful in its sight. You made us in Your image. You are the alpha and omega. Every single thing belongs to You.

Will You make me Yours
Will You hold me close
Will You let me lean on
Will You watch me grow
Will You cry for me
Will You laugh with me
Will You keep me warm
Will You bear with me
Will You share my pain
Will You be my joy
Will You seek for me
Will You spend time with me
Will You love me

I seriously can't think of any words to say especially the things that you have done for me the past few days. It just made me wanna love you even more. To commit more, to love You more, to spend time with You more.




































PS. I <3 You

Can't you just stop running and look around? Look how beautiful everything looks around? Everything will fall in His time =) It is the only comfort I got but its the best comfort I can ever get. To fall into His arms and trust in Him.

I always thought that I have grew up from that immature person that I was before army. Never needed anyone, thinking that I can do everything alone. But the truth is that I never really did grew up at all. If I find in myself desires nothing in this world can satisfy, I can only conclude that I was not made for here. If the flesh that I fight is at best only light and momentary, then of course I'll feel nude when to where I'm destined I'm compared.

Everyone has dreams and visions of what we are destined to be. But how many really did reached their destiny? I know that I am so far from what I am and need to be. Where am I exactly? Am I on a roundabout or a path that leads me no where? How far is it from where I am?

When the world came crashing down on me
You said You will not leave me
but why do I not feel that You are not here

When darkness seems to cave around
You said You will be with me
but why do I not feel Your gentle touch

You say that You're my God
You say that You're my Lord
A grace that knows no bound
A love that reaches out

I will praise You
When everything crashes all around
I will love You
When darkness is all that I see

I will live for
The one who died upon the cross
I will give my all
To the one who gave His all to me

Talking about sacrifice this and that and all the time in the World for church. But seriously when thinking about the ultimate sacrifice of dying on the cross it just made everything seemed so mediocre. Grow up Joash and stop complaining. It has been a great adventure and its time to start a new one. I will choose the path that You have chosen, which would be the best path ever for me.


Ecclesiastes 3 :11
"He has made everything beautiful in its time"

Why does things always seemed so hard???


I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

if only life was that simple

have Your way.

i miss walking in the rain with you.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. Ps 23:6

Used to believe that I could never ever please You

Spent a long time running scared
Couldn't receive that You will never ever leave me

Didnt know that You will call me friend

But Your grace for me is ever chasing me

No possibility of ever letting go

With all my might I sing Your praises so freely

I life my hands and I lift them high

Open my heart to say that You are so lovely

I worship You as a lifestyle

And now Your grace for me

Is overtaking me

No possibility of letting go

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me, shall follow me all my days

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me, shall follow me all the days of my life

So be confident of this one thing. That He who has began a good work in you shall complete

When you go through the waters go through the fire

He will be there

Rivers shall not overflow you

He will be there

To the left I see Your goodness

To the right I see Your mercy

And looking all around all I see is Your grace

All of the days of my life

-Surely Goodness Israel Houghton-

Exams are near and I really hate them alot BLEHHHH. Its tiring + I haven really studied anything yet THIS IS REALLY BAD. Totally love The Power of One by Israel. You can get them from TheGlow.com.sg haha free advertisement. Randommmm!!!!

Anyway there are so many tough and trial times that will never seemed to go over. But His goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life =DDDD

Learning to worship even in times of peace is harder compared to in time of a crisis yet God will always be there. Just lost of words.

God Moment : I have been asking Dan to ask Aaron to come to net every week. But its seems like it was never working. Was planning to call Aaron up on Thurs to ask him to come for net. I TOTALLY FORGOT, telling myself that I must call him on Friday afternoon that I must must call him. After like waking up in a daze and having another afternoon nap I realized that it was already 630pm 1 hour before net. Seriously using generalization + human logic I just made a passing comment, he will NEVER go to net since he has rejected like a million times. That's when God spoke so clearly to me, "give it a try, you will never know". The ending always happens God's way. SERIOUSLY LIMITING GOD THROUGH ME and yet every single time God will remove the limiter in me.
Once is enough God, I never ever wanna go through the painful times for not obeying You ever again. The dreams and promises may seem impossible but its through You that things are made possible.

The past week has been a hectic week. With a stupid wound on my leg and being an idiot when God said that He will DEFINITELY heal me by keep questioning Him the same question every 2 minutes. The problem is that He never even got frustrated with me or scolded me for being an annoyance. Where else can you find someone that listens to your stupid questions and your retarded (u know the answer yet still have to ask) rhetorical rubbish? Seriously come on. Only an idiot would do such a keep asking stupid stuff.

Joash = IDIOT

This past 2 weeks of walk with God is seriously the most exciting walk i ever had. Never in my life have i ever relied on God so much and still needing to rely on Him for the assignment that i havent started at all. After complaining to my sistol about it i just realised that even that God has promised me about helping me to get it done. Yet i go whining about it.

How can anyone with high fever and woke up at 630am due to feeling really bad and cant get out of bed ended up lasting through 2 tests in 1 day with 3 hours of lecture and 3 hours of tutorial and lasted a day of school from 830 to 1830??

The things that i do in church and everything does not even match up to what You give me. Still remembering me forcing You to make me the best in sound if sound ministry was the right ministry for me. It was never mine ministry but You that gave me this gift to let me shine.

But all in all without You my life will definitely be in complete mess and an utter disappointment to those around me.

What an eventful 2 weeks of the hectic edge bbq, handbillings and the moving to Gek Poh. But all i can say is that i love You and nothing else really matters anymore. Thanks for being there whenever i am in a fussy mood or raging mood or even when im in a lazing mood. Even knowing there is more to come, You will always be a listening ear.

This key that i hold in my hand will be handed over to You. The key to every part of my life. Just like the sermon today about ownage. =) The thought of You just being there makes me smile.

I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me

Phil 4 : 13


This verse have been stuck in me for ages.
What an eventful week it has been. A car accident, sick for half the week, thinking back on what I could have done better. Many things.
Have I been doing the things that God wants me to do or am I following the ways of the world??

Reading the Nanyang Chronicles got me thinking a lot. By the way its a bi monthly newspaper in NTU.
Just lost for words at the things that was written.

Looking at this picture below just reminds me of my neighbour which is full of tattoo and is into some kind of weird cult.
The amazing thing is that the family are now christians and faithfully following the footsteps of Jesus. The most unexpected being saved. What more else the expected ones?

I really thank God about the things in the past few months that have been praying about. Nothing else could excite me to see the things of this kingdom slowly coming into place.
The promises that You have given me and everything that You tell me would come to pass.

Thank God for such a great sound team at the edge
Thank God for making my friend come back to net
Thank God for everything that You have done in my life
Thank God for the things that You are gonna do through my life
Lord if there is anything else I ask for You know what my heart is yearning for.





Save this Generation
Save my Generation

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
You Do All Things Well - Chris Tomlin

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Adding To The Noise -Switchfoot

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Waiting on the World to Change - John Mayer

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Desperate People - Hillsong United

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Winter Wonderland - Jesse McCartney

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
The Little Things You Give Away - Linkin Park

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Acoutic Medley - Steven Curtis Chapman

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Echoes of Eden - Steven Curtis Chapman

WHAT IS 2+2?
Love is Waiting - Brooke Fraiser

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Sing To The Lord - Hillsong

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Saviour - New Life Church

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Yours - Steven Curtis Chapman

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Never Stop - Planetshakers

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
White and Nerdy - Weird Al Yankovic

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Spare an Angel - Chris Rice

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Take it All - Hillsong

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
That is Why - CFNI

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Leaving - Corrine May

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
The Invitation - Steven Curtis Chapman

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
I Did It For You - David Cook

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Wake up America - Miley Cyrus

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Hail To The King - Hillsong London

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Let's Dance - Miley Cyrus

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Your Name - CFNI

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
I Will Stand - New Life Church

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Highly Exalted - Lakewood

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Open Up The Heavens - Hillsong United

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE
Free - Planetshakers

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Slow Down - Corrine May

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Crush - David Archuleta

We could try to count the stars,
You already know them each by name.
Every single galaxy was your design,
Your majesty displayed.

Your glory shines before our eyes,
The more we see, the more we love You

King of wonders, we stand amazed,
There’s no other, other than you.
King of wonders, you know the way to our hearts and
The more we see the more we love you.

You reveal and we respond,
You have shown there’s no one like you God
Your love and mercy welcomes us
Into the beauty of this Holiness.

Your glory shines before our eyes,
The more we see, the more we love You

The more we see the more we love You, God.
-King of Wonders Compassionart-



This week has been a great week. A lot of things happened the past week.
Crappy GPA for 1st sem was expected but disappointing.
All I have to say its that being to praise the King of Wonders even in time of despair or joy is just awesome. What a great way to start a new year. The best year. I know that there is many lacks in my life in my walk with God but God never fails to be there in my life.
This year would be a great year. 2000 people at the end of the year. It may seemed impossible but even God can move the mountains, the King of Wonders at work where nothing can be denied.
What else can I ask for?
The more we seek
The more we find
The more we love
A God like no other
A God with all power
A God with love no one else can provide
King of all salvation.